A Girl Heartened by Life

When I was a child and could not sleep, my mother would give me sleeping tablets. When my mind could not relax, I would cry a lot, and because she was uneducated, she just gave me the tablets.

When I became older, my parents were so busy in their work, they had no time to be with me. I understand that they were busy.  But when I became older still, I felt that life had no value and we are born useless in this world. We were living in a village. I had no destiny in my life.

I felt that life had nothing for me. One day my father understood that his daughter had a mental problem. He took me to a doctor in the city. The doctor said to my father, “Your daughter will be all right,” and he gave me some medicine.

When we were in the city and I was taking the medicine, I saw everyone in the city had a destiny in life: that it was to study and gain knowledge. When I asked my father to let me stay in order to get knowledge, he didn’t ignore me.

But when I went to school I saw that I was different from everyone, and I said to my father, “I want to come back to the village.” My father said, “No. I will not take you back. Stay there and follow your school and studies.” He sent money to support me.

But then, my brothers had begun to grow up, and my father was becoming old. He was not able to work anymore. When my brothers began to work, they rejected me and did not send me enough for my school. I felt very unlucky. I was trying day and night to study. I took my exams, but I failed tenth class.

I was completely disappointed. But I repeated tenth class and studied even more. Now the only aim I have is to finish my twelfth class. Will I have success at the university or not? I assure you all that I will. I write for you.

By Majabeen


Comments

  1. Oh, Majabeen,
    How brave you are! You discovered an important truth: every life needs a purpose, and you made it real for me by sharing your personal story. Your writing made me like your father and admire you. Keep writing, the world needs stories like yours.
    I’d love to read about your finishing your twelfth class and your university studies. I loved school too.
    All the best to you,
    Linda

  2. Keep studying! Yes, you are very brave and you are doing this not just for yourself, but for all the women in your country, and really everyone in the world. The work of one person helps change the world. I wish you the best in all that you do.

    Kathy

  3. Ellen M. Harper says:

    Majabeen, you are a very strong woman and I admire you very much. I would like to hear more of your story. Congratulations on finishing your tenth class and I too know that you will do very well in your twelfth one. I wish all the best for you!

  4. Hi Majabeen,
    Thank you for sharing your story. You sound like a determined young women and with such determination it can only mean university for you. Let me know you when you finish your twelfth year, I’d love to hear how it went.
    Anne

  5. Majabeen, you will finish 12th class and you will succeed in your future endeavours because you are a strong person and you have the will and strenght in you to achieve your goals. Good vibes and best wishes to you!

  6. Dave Foltz says:

    No one can steal your joy. like your writing it flows from you. As reflected by your determination to invest in further study.

    You opened a door when you “saw everyone in the city had a destiny in life: that it was to study and gain knowledge. When I asked my father to let me stay in order to get knowledge, he didn’t ignore me.”

    I would like to share a poem with you by Rumi a Sufi mystic.
    “The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
    Don’t go back to sleep.
    You must ask for what you really want.
    Don’t go back to sleep.
    People are going back and forth across the doors
    where the two worlds touch.
    The door is round and open.
    Don’t go back to sleep.”

    May you continue to joyfully pass through doors you open

  7. Great story i have to study it for school :)

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