The Decision

May ALLAH forgive me for the decision I made 
May ALLAH forgive me for my faults

I chose a person to love and take care of me 
I chose a person to be there for me forever 
I chose a person to love when I felt alone 

May ALLAH forgive me for the decision I made 
May ALLAH forgive me for my faults

I held a hand to keep forever 
I loved a person to love forever
 
May ALLAH forgive me for the decision I made 
May ALLAH forgive me for my faults

Today I knew I was wrong

I made the wrong decision 
He has left me all alone 
He has left me in pain and insane 
He has left me scattered … broken like a leaf from a lovely tree 
 
May ALLAH forgive me for the decision I made 
May ALLAH forgive me for my faults

I held his love to be the best of all 
I depended on him, but I was mistaken

He left me alone on the floor in a big room 
I cried for kindness and for his shelter 
But he left me alone 

May ALLAH forgive me for the decision I made 
May ALLAH forgive me for my faults

He kept on ignoring me

He kept on making me feel worse 
But I held him tighter and tighter

He didn’t care for me; he left like the selfish man he is

But today I became aware 

I made the wrong decision
I trusted the wrong person

May ALLAH forgive me for the decision I made 
May ALLAH forgive me for my faults

By Pakiza 


Comments

  1. Allison Walker says:

    I’m sorry that this has happened to you. I hope that God will forgive you, and grant you a better path in life, and strength to move on.

  2. Dearest Pakiza, You have shown in this poem that you have a loving and tender heart. Thank you for sharing this. Art is a beautiful way to begin transforming pain into growth. Blessings to you! Lori

  3. MsPeachy says:

    Beautiful poem, dear.
    I’m just sorry its born out of pain.
    ___________________________
    Don’t ask for forgiveness.
    When two people don’t work together
    Build your inner Awareness
    Let be the mind
    light as a feather,
    And, opening, you will find
    There is no one to blame
    And it’s no one’s shame.

    Every heart has its shape
    Every mind has its wave
    Unless you try and miss
    You wont find the right kiss.
    ______________________________

  4. Pakiza,
    Thanks for sharing your piece with us. I think the beauty of your poem, which details heartbreak, resides within the level of honesty you displayed here. An aching heart is something that all of us can identify with and in this instance, this painful experience gave birth to something that most can relate to and is very moving. I felt each emotion you expressed and built upon within each stanza. It certainly is disheartening that a pain like this is something that is universal.

  5. Cabrilla McGinn says:

    Pazika-

    I believe Allah will forgive you because you seem to have done nothing wrong. It is normal to seek a person to love when you feel alone. I think the one who Allah should not forgive is the man who left you and wronged you. I know how it feels to be ignored by people who you once believed you were close with. It is a terrible feeling; one you beautifully exemplified in this poem. I hope that you find solitude and new love with someone who is deserving of your beautiful mind and soul.

    Thank you for sharing,

    Cabrilla

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