As I write this it is the last night of Ramadan and soon it will be Eid-al-Fitr, the first day of Shawwal, and all Muslim people will be celebrating the Eid. In the morning everyone will go to pray at the nearest mosque. But tonight, I am thinking of my family, my husband and my children.

I am very far from them and tonight I am at my laptop, torn as I wait for my husband to call via Skype.

He called me and said to me, “Eid Mubarak.”

I replied, “Thank you and same for you. I really miss you all.” But in truth I wished that nobody would wish me Eid Mubarak because then I started to cry.

He is very nice person, my husband, and he said to me, “No, No, don’t start to cry. You should be always happy and tolerate the challenges you are facing there. Look at me, I miss you, but I did everything for our children around our home. I bought new clothes for them. I baked cookies for our children. I did your chores around the home, and my job as a father of our family.”

Since leaving my family and my home, I always feel sad. I never thought that one day I would leave my children. If I saw this happen in a dream, I would think it is a very bad dream.

After talking with my husband, I talked with my daughter. She has taken on more responsibility now, cleaning the house and preparing the tea for breakfast. After that my youngest son and  youngest daughter woke up and they also greeted me with “Mom, Eid Mubarak.” They went to take their showers and came back wearing their new Eid clothes. I wished them a happy Eid. I turned off my computer.

I am never happy when I am so far from my family. Every day starts a new battle with new obstacles. But after I talk with my family, I feel a little better and I can try to make my way past the obstacles. I am hopeful about the future. I believe at the end of each night is day, and that each sad story comes to a point where it ends.

I stood in front of the mirror and I asked myself, “Why I am so depressed?  No! Let’s celebrate Eid-al-Fitr. I will not cry if someone wishes me Eid Mubarak.”

I will say to the people, “Eid Mubarak! May almighty Allah tala bring peace in our country. May our people celebrate happy Eid. May there be no separation of families and no war. May our country know peace.”

By Mariam

Photo by Simon Monk.