Editor’s note: Daesh is the acronym for the Arabic name of the Islamic State.

Whether we are looking years into our past or at our reality today, all that we Afghans witness is war. Every day we see war, we hear war, we feel war, and we are living in war. Our life is defined by war.

Yes, I know that you know it’s hard, but trust me that it’s harder than you think. Because until you face it, you won’t understand it. Today the situation in Afghanistan is very critical.  It is well known that the story of the Taliban is tied with that of the Daesh.  Now it’s not just the Taliban who are interested in our deaths, but also the Daesh.  What will happen next?

I can see our citizens selling their property so they can emigrate from our borders and seek better lives.  The other day as I went to my relatives’ house, I saw all these people selling their appliances to the ragmen.  The flea shops are full of home appliances, new and old.  People from all around are coming to sell more of their possessions so they can gather enough money to move to another country.

Nowadays we are hearing a new story that is much different from the one we heard before the election.  I thought that with the new president in 2014 would come a new life for Afghanistan.  I believed that everything would change in a positive way, but with the new president what has come is no electricity, no security. 

But we cannot just blame the president.  Everyone should promote change, but here that seems impossible. Going outside our borders illegally can be even worse than death.  Those who do it are playing with their own lives, but people do it like it is nothing, even when it means everything.

My mind is empty.  Everything is the same as it was in the past and maybe nothing will ever change.  We are facing the same problems my parents faced thirty-seven years ago. We will never be certain what will happen next. If things get worse I may not be able to continue my studies at my university.  That’s not good news, but I may have no other choice.

I don’t know if I will be able to write for AWWP again or not. Why? Because I am living in Afghanistan, and here you do not know what is waiting for you around the corner.

But I will not stop hoping for a better day.  I will never stop the search for a better tomorrow.  Even if I am uncertain about the future, I will live today the best as I can, as though there is no tomorrow.

By Aysha

ISAF Photo by US Air Force Tech Sergeant Brenda Nipper